drama camp

15 - 17 march

just had my drama camp. it was fun like hell men! i was really excited about it. i didn't really know what activities was set. actually, i was looking forward to sleeping with my friends [ghost stories and chit chatting at night]. and to seeing renee again.

first day was as more fun than the second day. we had more energy. games were fun men! i think ms yee's games were as fun as renee's. just that we yelled and ran around more with renee's session. the food was okay. tea, lunch, tea, dinner. galvin came around lunch. maria was like gushing over him. eeww. adibah left early and never came back [freakky]. ahlong came to school as he was going for the escplanade. melissa was going home as she was sick. she vomited along the path. saw mich and matthew when she went to fetch melissa. we were like screaming in the bus when mich came. men i missed her so much. hugged her! mwaha!

we had dinner at esplanade. we watched the mosiac concert. the concert was good. it was professional. certainly these people play their life out. it's sort of a serious gimmick which also exudes fun. i thought the crowd looked pretty connected. maybe they are the friends of the performers. we, crazy as we are, were making alot of impulsive noises. just having fun. we cheered and whistled and clapped. everyone's looking at us. it's just in our nature to be wild in public. we had a connection with the performers because we were in the front row screaming out to them like they one kind of super star [FEVER! - lilly]. it was fun. ms yee went of to somewhere during the concert. don't ask me i too don't know.

during at night i can't sleep. too hyper. i know i must sleep for tomorrow. but i just can't. i told ghost story at night. succeeded in freaking them out. we were actually planning to walk around school at night but gundu maria go ask for permission. dumb. i changed place three five times before getting a decent sleep. actually im not really used to sleep on the floor and the next day my shoulders were aching because i slept on my side. everyone was snoring. they claimed i was snoring too. whatever. maria cecilia kelly del and ian continued with the ghoft story stuff while i slept with aisha syaza ratna kernar izwan marx and nas. stupid lah. the barrier in between boys and girls no use one. then woke up with the sound of the siren. actually was awake before that just drifting into light sleep. then the siren was so loud i thought it was the school alarm. turned out to be ian's stupid phone. dumb. we were so frustrated. it was five in the morning men! couldnt drift back to sleep so went to bathe. then walked around the school with nas, izwan, aisha and kernard. cecilia, kelly, maria and del went ghost hunting. dumb people. i think cecilia worship maria like a god. she follows her everywhere and do everything she does. dumb. [they are uncommon so i can call them dumb].

played truth or dare around 7 am. was making a racket through out the whole school. ms yee came and scolded us. we were quiet then. during breakfast she was really mad. somebody was saying that we better behave later on. then we said sorry to mdm ek. i think we also woke her up. be right. then back in the studio nas was saying - how come mdm ek never say anything then ms yee say. i told him that ms yee was like a mother to us, more willing to teach and point out our mistake unlike other people who do not care about us even though we make a fool out of our selves. he understood. everyone understood. during yoga we did keep quiet. total silence.

we did more games. but it wasnt as spontaneous as yesterday. energy levels down. even when renee took over. renee's games were challenging. really tough and need serious deep creative and innovative thinking. we also had monologues. serious men. second day was a hard day. during the mono, the limelight was on each individual and it was tough to just step out there. marx did a good open. but all of our mono SUCK! even if renee praised us, and i think it was only encouragement.

one person i know who the success of the camp belongs to. ms yee. she was the one who prepared all of it. of course ms ng and ms rani helped too. but she has her heart set on the camp. she loves us -drama- very much and who knows how much. we love her the same. as nas was saying, drama would be dead without her. as mel was saying, we will miss her if she leaves. as ahlong was saying, the other teachers cant substitute her. as cecilia was saying, she looks so dead when teaching at class but she laughs the loudest at the activities we have making other people laugh out too because of her oh-so-crazy laugh. the stupid committee was absolutely useless. sec three. what will happen if sec fours are gone?. sigh. no initiative nor eagerness to get things done. i tried my best to help her and collected the forms for the teachers and asked people if they are confirmed about the camp. so she does not have to walk around chasing after people. i know or at least have a clue on how much she had toiled for the success of this camp. besides, she was there all the time unlike the other teachers. it's always like that what. even during the anti-drug performance at lot 1 she was there for the two days. i know lah! i am biased towards her. ms ng and ms rani have noticed. that's because i am the only one who would dare to voice it out. the rest feel the same way too. i know because they tell me without me asking them. but they would not dare to act it out or voice it out. i am just bold, sensitive and expressive that's all.

renee also played a major role in the success. of course. she's a pro men!i think the camp would not be as -wow!- without her! we missed her so much that when she came in we gave her a booming welcome. haha. she rocks the earth. totally.

that's all. too long.
peace out.

what did i do?

what did i do?

argh. why am i so hateful. i hate hating people but i really cant stop hating people who are bound to be hated! i am not a hypoctrite like some people who have two faces and try to be nice for the sake of a clean reputation. when i hate people, i hate them. i do not hide the feelings, i try to suppress them. there is a big difference.

ok. to start of. maybe it is just a misunderstanding. or maybe i am just a complicated person. or maybe i am too demanding. but isn't it for my own good?

firstly, my *** teacher, she is kind and cheerful. but when it comes to classes, all she knows is talk. "maybe we should do this... i'll ask the person to come over... i'll order some materials for all of you..." but in the end, nothing happens. and we have been enduring classes of utter inutility and immobility. we do nothing at all but draw... draw... and draw - by ourselves! i am dying of boredom. others are satisfied but what about me! i am restless and discontented. i am being pulled down by the slowness (mind me, does she progress at all?) of her teaching. no mock exams this year. mr a said that we MUST have mock exam. to no avail. she gives no inspiration. no ideas. no critiques. and i am lost now in my course work. i do not know what to do. will i be able to pull this out by myself? i have no confidence in her. honestly i think she is incompetent. all she does in class is mark her papers or do her own sketches. shit men. and what? she reasoned that they should relieve her of one class just because she is taking a graduation class! she is not doing anything at all! she leaves our class even before lesson ends. she goes to places who knows where. she calls who knows who in her handphone when it is lesson time. i am frustrated as my future is in her hands yet she is throwing it away. not me! her! SUCK! but don't get me wrong. i still like her as a person but as a teacher, i am enraged. i do give hints. i just can't tell it to her face.

secondly, this ***** teacher in charge. why oh why is fate so cruel! i have two ***** teachers in charge hating me! unreasonable bastards! ask as to stay back until seven? my shit! and why do you have to shout at me when i asked you nicely "may i go home" and shouted at me! i am not like the normal tech students that you shout at everday! FUCK YOU!!! i have my own brains and if i have too, i'll use them to defend my dignity! i know i am not 100% faultless but give me some respect as i try to give you some you imbeciles! yes i am restless now a days because you are boring my guts out! it is not only me, most of my peers have the same opinion. just that i tend to express better than them. and also i started giving "attitude". what up with that?! i was just giving the platform to other people who have yet to try. no honestly, besides laziness that was my paramount rationale. also, during activities, she marks her paper! i mean its like saying "i do not care about you and i have found something better to do" shut up! further more, after each session, she will only negative remarks. yes i recorded. she doesn't sing any praises at all! and she keeps on shouting that makes me my eardrums ring for the whole day. her colleague is as worse. this brainless scum (oh no... i'm going to vulgar here) is a replica of the first one. same attitude. but this teacher is less idiotic than the first one. well. a little less. i just hate them both. argh. of course not talking about ms y.

my dislike for my dearest father (teacher) mr s has ceased. thank God! he is the least person in earth you would like if you do not know him well. might as well compare him to stalin and hitler and mussolini. but i think he is the angelic side of these trio deep down there somewhere. when he loves, he loves without question. when he hates, he hates without answers (what the hell that means? i do not know! it just looks metaphorical so...)

can't write all what i want to write here. 1. it is too long 2. it is to extreme. well fot those of you who knows who i am refering to, keep your mouth shut.

"peace'

after party

hello readers

you are probably wondering why i was absent yesterday. since i only answered a few people who asked that question, am sorry for my rudeness.

firstly, i had french common test today so i wanted to study. yes i studied the whole day. secondly i studied for the physics test. that was after i watched "oliver twist". nice movie by the way. it was stale nevertheless noble, costume's a meany. lastly i was lazy to go to school. i thought i would fancy i 24hrs holiday. according to my excuse letter, i am supposed to be having a stomach ache. but assuming that you reader is trusthworthy, i am telling you the true story.

i am happy that my french common test is over. i think i would pass. but for all i know i commited a sin and God wants to punish me therefore he minus 10 marks. it's a sin that i have been struggling with for years and i dare not tell anyone. so i must be good this week.

that's all in store...
peace out y'all

missing you...

i am exploited and tired. i need a break

drill

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